2010

Is it perhaps, time for a change? I'm starting to think there's something very wrong with me. I'm not sure I'm happy. 2010 hasn't started very well. I feel sort of isolated in my new house, living with strangers I have nothing in common with. With my housemates gone and most people now living away from Derby, I'm bleeding allies and friends like nothing else.
A job application to work in China didn't pan out, neither did my last relationship. And my constant reassurances that I was going to "be better" and "be a new man" in the new decade has come to nothing. Still, it is early days I suppose.

And as well as this, everyone I asked seemed to think I'm fine as I am. That I shouldn't want to change myself. Well thats sweet and all, but I don't feel like you understand what the problem is. I'm sick and tired of being single, I'm fed up with feeling directionless and overweight and unmotivated and so damn scared of taking risks and chances.
I have the ambition and even the drive to make myself better, but what about the practicalities?

The thing is, I'm not sure that I know how to change my behavouir. I'm not sure I understand what is required to reinvent your life.
I'm not really completely unhappy, but I'd prefer things to be better than half full. I'd like them to be 2/3rds the way up the glass. Is that, too much to ask. So, gentle reader (all five or so of you, plus the spam bot who messaged my last post) how does one go about making themselves a new life? I may need some help with this...

Words of Wisdom #0000002 - Yorick Brown

"First comes boyhood. You get to play with Soldiers and Spacemen, Cowboys and Ninjas, Pirates and Robots. But before you know it, all that comes to an end. And then, Remo Williams, is when the real adventure begins."