Well, my opening post turned into just what I do best. A rambling, pretencious, quasi-philosophical rant designed to fool people into thinking that I know what the fuck I'm talking about. So, for anyone who knows me, or to anyone who comes across this blog on some tedium inspired wander across the internets, here's some much needed focus.
My name's Thomas Alun Badlan. Almost everyone calls me Tom. Which is fine by me. Thomas is reserved for those who are either exasperated or furious with me. I'm 24. I'm a care worker with Derby City Council and a charity called Leonard Cheshire. I work with disabled children for the council and disabled adults with the charity. They pay me the same money as a roadsweeper, yet despite a degree in Creative Writing, I am not qualified for much more. Do not misunderstand me, I love my work. I just wish it rewarded dedication and loyalty more than it does. I am an aspiring writer, one without any real motivation to even get my work noticed. I write infrequently these days, real life getting in the way. That's mostly an excuse, laziness also obstructs art.
That's my modus operandi. But there's more, of course there's more. I am a dreamer, a reluctant optimist, a nostalgic, melodramatic pragmatist. I am heavily interested in the works of philsophy, from the ideals of Utilitarianism and post modernism. I am a story addict. I love books, movies, comics, video games and tv drama. I am a narrative junkie. Storytelling is my passion and always will be. I tend to get obsessed over things, revelling in them until they are spent, used up or otherwise exposed to be redundant. I love my life, but also love escaping it to other worlds, both real and imagined. I am hugely opinonated, immersing myself in politics, geo-political, domestic and foreign policy issues, as well as social issues, human rights and free speech. I am a left-leaning, liberalist, socialist, with strong views and a stronger voice. I put it to you, gentle reader, that there is no real way to be certain of anything, and therefore any person who claims absolute faith in God is a fool. Devout believer, or doubting athiest, there is no distinction between such misguided souls. Ergo, I classify myself as a humanist agnostic.
And that is what I love. As for who I am. Well, I am an overweight man, who keeps fairly active and healthy. I am of average height, with light brown hair that grows far too quickly and sharp blue eyes. I am quick to anger, though never violent, and just as quick to fall into a miserablist stupor. I have a mischevous streak, with a sarcastic, quick wit which will amuse at first, but eventually aggravate. I am quite capable of becomming a giddy, giggling school child, enthused by everything and finding humour in every corner. These sudden and constantly shifting moods are alarming, especially to myself, but I muddle through. Overall, I am a content person, pleased with the man I am today and hopeful for the future.
And that is a synopsis of my existence. It is too long and without real focus, but if you wanted to know a little more about me, then there's the place to start.
Adieu, mes amis.
